𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞'𝐬 𝐓𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 / Poem

Love's Testament; On this one year anniversary of my beloved wife Wendy's passing over (4/10/19) or as I prefer to say of her having  ascended into spirit where she is now as joyful and loving as ever. This poem portrays her continuing beautiful presence and our ongoing love.

𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲'𝘀 𝗧𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 ***

She is the very spirit of loving kindness flowing,

Flowering with an ever gentle incandescence of joy,

I find the calm space of the true heart - the deeply knowing,

And then hear the shining light of your soul-love calling me on -

To our heavenly home beyond dimensions known where I will be with you soon,

In the garden of the beloved where together we belong -

Each life follows a path imbued with deep and heartfelt meaning,

Absolute love is the ultimate cause of the trans-dimensional infinite spirit streaming,

I hear her calling

Be Awake with an abundance of love - you divine infinity!

And then I perceive she is near me,

And she is joyful with glee -

How bright within without a form yet I do clearly see,

My heart keeps breaking and being renewed in this divine love - so may it be,

How can I follow the secret pathways by which your spiritual presence does grow,

Or for even a moment hope to smile if your deep loving soul I did not know,

And how quickly can I move to where you are in spirit right now,

Also here -

And yet I do -

Because your love is in my every breath, every heartbeat, thought, word and moment -

Beyond all the murmurings of my restless mind your heart reaches me gently with a sigh,

Tomorrow is gone and yesterday will sing her song but your peaceful joy is resounding,

And you are smiling with kindness and grace and your love is ever abounding -

She sparkles then and stars fall from the heavens to her feet,

Like they always did,

Laughing -

Together in the truth beyond this unreality that they call the now moment,

Unbinding my spirit from the earthly self I am dancing with you in our love's bestowment,

Uplifting soul beyond emotion-tides that would sweep heart-mind awareness away,

I am stood at your infinities endless shore every night and every day -

And you teach devotion true with love's most sacred prayer,

Your presence in my heart lifts my soul like the silvered dandelions whose joy transforms the air,

Quantum particles of the forever-now celebrate our love's blessing everywhere,

And we dance as one beyond the reach of time and outside of every care -

Stepping through remembrances into the ever joyful presence of your love,

I am begun the work of understanding that would usually come sometime in the above,

learning to recognise the many patterns that have played throughout our lives,

I am so grateful to have found this love with you through which our spirits ever rise -

I walk this garden with you daily and follow my soul path home,

With only your love to guide me and the flowers of love you have sown,

The light of your dear heart shining within every crocus and chrysanthemum in bloom,

Gentle as gentian dark cobalt hue the gateway inexpressible - here the inner shrine,

Your love's testament is written on my heart forever divine -

Titus L

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Art = Love's Testament by Phoebe Traquair (1852-1936).
Scottish Arts & Crafts artist, Phoebe Traquair was the first woman elected to the Royal Scottish Academy.

This painting is a perfect choice to illustrate my poem as it evokes the potentially transcendent spiritual nature of love, which continues to flow between Wendy and myself even now that she has left her body and moved into spirit completely. In researching the background of the painting I found it was inspired by a Dante Gabriel Rossetti poem of the same name (Love's Testament), which in its turn was based on a darker, Greek mythologically based Edward Burne-Jones painting, the Wine of Circe. Whilst Dante Gabriel Rossetti's sonnet refers to the religious ground of the love being discussed, I express that spiritual love itself is a gateway to the divine. 

Here is Dante Gabriel Rossetti's poem;

𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲'𝘀 𝗧𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁

O Thou who at Love's hour ecstatically
Unto my heart dost evermore present,
Clothed with his fire, thy heart his testament;
Whom I have neared and felt thy breath to be
The inmost incense of his sanctuary;
Who without speech hast owned him, and, intent
Upon his will, thy life with mine hast blent,
And murmured, "I am thine, thou'rt one with me!"
O what from thee the grace, to me the prize,
And what to Love the glory, --when the whole
Of the deep stair thou tread'st to the dim shoal
And weary water of the place of sighs,
And there dost work deliverance, as thine eyes
Draw up my prisoned spirit to thy soul!

Dante Gabriel Rossetti.

𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲'𝘀 𝗧𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗯𝘆 𝗣𝗵𝗼𝗲𝗯𝗲 𝗧𝗿𝗮𝗾𝘂𝗮𝗶𝗿