Wendy, my beloved wife, left us at 4.55am on October 4th 2019, peacefully in her sleep at home xx Following her early departure due to terminal cancer, this blog shares my poems and related posts exploring my arising awareness that our passed away loved ones continue in a transformed state of being, nolonger physical but still with us in spirit ~
Friday, April 17, 2020
Love Is The Oneness / Poem
The spiritual equality which is divine,
The ultimate unified field of everything,
The indescribable beyondness which infuses and enthuses all,
Love is without end -
It is the underlying ground of being that pervades every matter,
The magical transcendental etheric everywhereness,
The formation and being of every realm,
And of the countless beyond number and realmness -
To share this love
Is to open a soul portal deep within,
To travel across the rainbow spirit bridge,
To enter the secret inner gateway,
To awaken an endless channel of energy flowing,
To begin a dialogue between hearts,
To actualize a truth of intention,
To launch an imbuement of delight,
Overcoming any fears or fright,
Celebrating the continuous light,
Being infinitely bright,
Lit from within,
Shining brightly,
Between those who love -
And it will remain eternally present,
Within the hearts of our non physical souls,
As well as infinitely free -
This love is
Unformed, luminous, liminal, limitless, cosmicaly uncontained, unrestrained, unbound, unfound, unconditional and all around,
It defies definition yet is absolutely constant,
Deeply healing and always uplifting,
Outside of time-space and beyond every dimension,
Wonderful to the inexpressible degree -
Even though it is non physical,
It includes everything;
All that which comprises thought,
Or is perceived by the senses,
Every emotion and notion,
All the inklings and spiritual twinklings,
The vast pan-galactic astrologic movements,
And subatomic quantum moments,
The space between the seeing and the knowing,
And it is forever flowing,
Everywhere -
It looks like every joy that could ever be,
The sunshine illumined pollens on a sultry summer afternoon,
And the moonlight glowing gently in the branches of a hidden midnight tree,
The flowers of happiness shining in your heart,
Every kind thought word and deed,
Endless patience, compassion, fortitude,
Unveiled insight and understanding,
The warbling of a songbird just for you,
And how the migrating geese know the way to go home,
The way that ants navigate by the stars,
And the relationship between a nucleus and its atom,
Even the wild powerful tenderness between cosmos and creator -
It is the foreverness of being with you,
Surrendering to your soul pathway completely,
Discovering the other side of every moments now,
Reconciling all dualities by the transmutations of the heart,
Life/death, happy/sad, together/apart,
Feeling your eternal spirit within -
It is like your homemade rhubarb and custard for tea,
Acheivment of our every cherished dream - It is spooky action at a distance,
Clairvoyance, telepathy and truth,
The secret hope that shines at dawn,
And the metaphysics by which mortals make their meanings -
It feels like the beyond physics flight of the cosmic bumblebee,
The warmth in the heart after any fearfullness, doubt or confusion dissolved,
The after life finding of spiritual eternity,
The realisation -
It resides beyond all the arcana of belief,
And the beatitudes of being -
Our love is you and me,
Forever in joy -
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TitusL
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This poem which is in free verse not rhyme, tries to express in a glimpse the expanse of our love across time. It is a little bit wider than our sweet time, reaching into the infinite beyond as that's where we are now and forever sublime 🙏
Monday, April 13, 2020
There Is Joy / Poem
Friday, April 10, 2020
She Is Risen / Poem
A beautiful journey she has taken into the heavenly festival divine,
Like the rising sun her awakened spirit leaving body-death behind,
She is a spirit of love, light and joy, a higher vibration of her soul self,
So happy to be going home and meet friends who have gone on before,
So brave and cheerful as she set off to the infinite delight of evermore -
She includes me in her heart and thoughts in the here and the hereafter,
Without begining and without end and with much delightful laughter -
She comes to me in spirit now and asks do you see me, how do I seem?
She says I think about you all the time and I talk to you in your life's dream,
You give me so much love and devotion, do you feel me with your heart near?
She tells me It is helpful to be spiritually aware and to be of ever good cheer,
It is fantastic and more than incredible, it is astonishing here -
We can reach those to whom we are connected by the power of soul love,
We are forever united in delight and wonder across the beyond and above,
What a great happiness we are given and there is so very much more,
Your uplifted heart with love changes your awareness within you and before,
In tranquility you can now see everything sings a magnificent song of joy -
I feel her near and a beautiful sensation flows a river of healing into me,
Like a lantern at night, a church window at dawn, a secret sun glowing to see,
I am so happy, this is beyond wonderful, she is so alive to my heart knowing,
A love and joy so happy and free, I cannot wait to be with her in the eternity,
We will be together she says, but I must be patient until the crossing of ways -
I hear your hearts thoughts with compassion she says for in spirit we are one,
If only people would accept body-death means spirit-living on in the beyond,
All would know eternal life is a gift of joy and love's boundless blessing for hearts to correspond -
I cannot describe this happiness which is now so much greater,
Being at one with each other a deeper wave within me rises,
For love is the heart's consciousness activator -
As I become conscious and lighter the burdensome mind falls away,
Bliss overcomes me as her gentle and tender love enter my heart today,
Here in the eternal happiness of our unconditional love endlessly at play,
In this light you can see everything illumined by the heart from up above -
The great happiness overwhelms me of our forever love -
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TitusL
Tuesday, April 7, 2020
My Beloved / Poem
The end of this life is not the end of our love but the start of something greater,
Into the abyss of this unknowingness I leap with only our love as guiding navigator -
I shift from the physical to the inner realm where the truth of love is all,
I have no earthly desire nor worry now as this world without you does not hold any thrall -
For your love I look within as outward eyes do not see the real perception,
Because physical senses are but tools to convert lower vibrations of matter into coded forms of reception -
Your spirit of love is a higher vibration which flows from the heart of your non-physical soul,
This can only be understood by the heart-mind of love which is the joy of creation in whole -
Our love dispells the clouds of unknowing as I perceive that you are near,
Our love lifts my soul and my heart's eyes to your presence, I believe that you are already here -
To always weep over your death I would be forever lost in illusions of the earthly realm,
Your body-death stole your body away but your spirit lives on by the grace of the infinite hearts helm -
I follow the golden thread of your love beyond body-death into our luminously bright forevers,
I follow our love across the river of earthly understanding on the wings of my uplifted soul feathers -
You have gone before me in spirit but your love illuminates my soul-path every day,
Although I miss your worldly self yet you are with me still and in every moment I am on my way -
I witness that on this sacred path of loves endlessness all the wonders come to pass,
I witness that for those who follow the love beyond all worldly things they will find love eternal at last -
Our souls are transdimensional creatures of light bringing love's understanding to all,
In the infinite realm of the here and beyond this love guides us through every wherewithall -
I found the pathway to the worlds within which I follow now to be with you,
Our days of shared joy on the earth were limited but our love is boundless and true -
Each footfall of mine lands on carpets of flowers and beds of verdant mosses in green,
Yet there is no joy like the light of your love to which I continually fly from this dream -
As the sparrowhawk keehaas from somewhere up above,
To our quiet place I go now, to my heart, to our love -
TitusL
Sunday, April 5, 2020
Booklist For The Recently Bereaved / Post
When my beloved wife underwent her body-death and spiritual upliftment in October 2019, I was absolutely devastated. I had no idea how to cope with this situation or survive the overwhelming emotional impact that took hold of me. Fortunately I was able to find some distraction in reading, which quickly led me on a personal quest of research to find out all I could that has been written more recently with a sympathetic insight into our spirits at death and the afterlife.
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I already had a spiritual outlook that had developed over the years, but I was in existential crisis now. In the ensuing books I read and the research I undertook I found some comfort and enriched my understanding of death, 'life' after-death and our souls paths into, through and beyond this life.
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Although there are many more insighful, caring and compassionate books that could be included here, I am recommending just these few. These have proved to be the most particularly instrumental books in helping me to move from absolute despair into a calmer acceptance of my bereavement and awareness of my new spiritual experience. I do give deep and heartfelt thanks to their authors.
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While I am still subject to bereavement grief and sorrow, I now also have a more universal outlook and understanding of death, the soul and our spiritual life after-death. I also have an ongoing relationship of love with my beloved wife in spirit and I am certain that she is very happy that I have been able to acheive and to share this outlook.
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Soul Proof by Mark R. Pitstick.
This book helped me to establish a more secure scientific footing for my afterlife outlook and the ongoing existence of the spirit. It bolstered up my hearts doubt ridden intuitions and perceptions, lending me a confidence that has grown in strength as I have come to trust myself in these understandings more deeply.
''Imagine how wonderful life would be if you REALLY KNEW--without a doubt--that no one really dies. Think of how your life would change for the better if you were convinced that life is a totally safe and magnificent adventure amidst eternity. Consider how reassuring it would be if irrefutable evidence proved we each are indestructible spiritual beings having a temporary earthly experience. "Soul Proof" by Dr. Mark Pitstick provides that proof.''
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The Bridge over the River: After Death Communications of a Young Artist Who Died in World War I.
This book provided my first indepth glimpse into the love and compassion that the uplifted may feel for those they left on earth and specifically how they might communicate that love with us. It really gave the departed a voice in my understanding.
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This was not my first encounter with books about mediums who channel spirits however, that was Expression of Consciousness by David Spencer. His book dissasembled my underlaying apprehension about all things 'spiritualistic' because as a medium he showed himself in the book to be a genuine and caring soul.
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After that book I felt safe enough to step in a bit further and so read this enchanting account which was suggested to me by the very uplifting spiritual and new age singer Deva Premal.
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''This book contains communications from a young musician named Sigwart to his sister after his death in 1915. After experiencing an inner unrest leading to the feeling that her brother was trying to contact her, she gradually achieved conscious contact with him, receiving the remarkable messages included here, messages that she shared with Rudolf Steiner. Containing prayers, meditations, insights, advice, and a view of the world born aloft by love, it will comfort, enlighten, and speak to hearts of all persuasions.''
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Your Soul's Plan: Discovering the Real Meaning of the Life You Planned Before You Were Born by Robert Schwartz.
This book addressed what was the most agonising painful question of all for me, that of why - why did my beloved and the love of my life have to die from cancer. It offers a very revolutionary outlook perhaps, but for me this book has helped me to reconcile the feelings of my bereavement victimhood into those of spiritual acceptance.
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Whilst I do not have any specific answer now, I do have a potentially viable framework for the situation. I am thereby transformed in my experience of my own life and my understanding of death, the afterlife and our souls (possible) plans beyond that. Whilst my grief does of course continue, this book has helped me to change from feeling like a broken soul inhabiting a dark lost space to one of hope, light and love.
''Your Soul’s Plan (which was originally published under the title Courageous Souls: Do We Plan Our Life Challenges Before Birth?) explores the premise that we are all eternal souls who plan our lives, including our greatest challenges, before we are born for the purpose of spiritual growth. ''
Thank You 🙏🙏
Saturday, April 4, 2020
Wendy Of The Daffodills & Crocuses / Painting
This painting is based on one of Wendy's 'pyrography' creations, of an Angel. With my version I have illuminated it with the bright yellows of her favourite spring daffodills for her auric wings and she is set in an energy field of the lovely lilacs of her early crocuses.
The colours of this painting which suggested themselves ie were chosen by Wendy, are infact very instructional.
The nimbus around her head that appears to have aspects of flame, comprises the red of the base chakra and orange of the sacral chakra which are transmuted into the pure white of the crown chakra. This signifies the burning away of all earthly bindings, her ascension in spirit and complete spiritual awakening as a being of pure and divine love..
The wings of solar plexus chakra yellow signify power over the things of this world - in this case lifting her above and beyond the physical realm.
The sword of discernment is in the heart's chakra green, this indicates that her heart clears the way, which it does with the heart wisdom of love.
The robes of throat chakra blue which indicate truth, denotes that she is all truth, she exists now as an emanation of truth. Truth which exists beyond all duality does not judge but with understanding embraces all in love.
The field of lilac stands in for the third eye chakra of ameythest and portrays that she stands in the field of my awareness, of my intuition and is offering me guidance -
Come Closer - Messages From The God Within' which I am reading just now, because it is very in keeping with Wendy's spiritual outlook & her bright happy heart. It even sounds as though she might have said this herself, not so much the 'voice' but the sentiment -
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𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐚 𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬.
𝐉𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐰𝐢𝐦 𝐢𝐧 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐌𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐧𝐨 𝐝𝐨𝐮𝐛𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐢𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐜𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐛𝐞.
𝐈 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠.
𝐈 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐌𝐲 𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬, 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐞𝐥𝐬𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐮𝐧𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥.
𝐈𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐟𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐬, 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐞𝐢𝐠𝐡, 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐚𝐛𝐞𝐥, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐧𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝...
𝐌𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐨𝐟 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞. 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 - 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐧𝐨 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐥 𝐥𝐮𝐠𝐠𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐟𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐥 𝐭𝐨 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐚𝐝.
𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐌𝐲 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐧𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐞𝐱𝐜𝐞𝐩𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐣𝐨𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐥 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐌𝐞, 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐣𝐨𝐲 𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐨𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐣𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐚𝐥.''
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Wendy lived her life while on earth as an ongoing act of devotion to God's love and a celebration of all creation. She lived by the heart and from the heart, she exemplified loving kindness in all things and to everybody whom she ever met. Wendy is an archetype of eternal joy and I am certain that she carries on in just the same way now in the heavenly realms.
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This quote from Jozef Rulof's book The Bridge To Eternal Life
expresess her joyful spiritual horizon;
Passing over means happiness for one person, sadness, sorrow, grief and deep darkness for another. But those who are loving and have been spiritually open to life are the happy ones on the other side.
They see the light and receive abundant love such as they gave to so many others while on earth. God knows the way they lived their life on earth and they will be rewarded according to their inner qualities.
With much love always ❤️🙏xx~
Wednesday, April 1, 2020
From Here Into Infinity / Poem
We are here and this is us.
Together our love is in a non-physical heart-space.
Which is non-physical and exists.
I feel your love coming from your heart into my heart and the 'ourness' of our love continues.
Our love is in a place called the here and now.
This place is found in the heart.
The here and now of our love is beyond the infinite and encompasses further than all imagining.
My perception and awareness of our love existing in the here and now is completely relaxed and natural.
Your love comes from your heart-soul and is not my wishful projection.
Here is the lesson of spiritual perception revealed by heart led intuition.
I trust the love I feel in my heart-soul and by these means I perceive the endlessness of our love more clearly.
There is no end to our love because love is not a quantity it is a quality.
We are blessed to share the presence of our endless and infinite love together.
Our love is a calm, gentle, deep, all-pervading, ever-uplifting, without form, non-physical, light, happy, free, spontaneous, courageous, gentle, caring, nurturing, curious and abundant joy.
This joy occurs when we are together in spirit.
You no longer have a body in this realm yet your love still reaches me.
Thus being together in the joy of our love in spirit does not require a physical form.
Our love exists outside the physical realm.
Our love blooms from within our souls and reaching through the non physical essence joins us together across the infinity.
I choose to identify with and perceive from the perspective of my soul rather than my earth formed personality.
The more clearly my Identified locus of perceiving is my soul, the more I will be in conscious harmony with your soul.
My personality binds me to itself to the extent that I find myself caught up in my earth life dramas.
To reconcile these life dramas will free me from the issues with which I had defined, understood and limited my evolving self.
When I give up thinking of myself as my identity I am free from my mind-self.
The experiencer who remains is the soul.
Thus I find the spiritual freedom of our love when I am nolonger self focused and thereby experience the underlying soul.
From here the uplift into our transdimensional love is natural.
We are both present together in the non-physical place of our here and now.
Togetherness could not be more absolute,
We are united by love in spirit and heart -
TitusL